Monday, October 27, 2008

I try my best to sleep past 8am on the 27th and forget that another month has passed since losing my daughter. I couldn't was a preschool morning and my son depends on me. So, I managed to make it out of bed only to learn that our heat went out. (Electric blankets disguised it through the night.) We get dressed and are off. Once I drop off Wyatt, I had scheduled to stop by a friend's house who has come up with a wonderful fundraiser for the Annabelle pink bow-shaped car magnets. Her husband owns a graphics company so we design the magnets and I get a few to take with me to stir up interest. Back home, I realize that the heat is still not working. The earliest that someone could come is early afternoon...that'll work...I figure it's just the pilot light that is out anyways. I pick up Wyatt from preschool and we come home to what is quickly becoming even colder. Wyatt directs me as to how to start a fire in the fireplace. He's a natural...watched Scott do it once and now he's a know it all! I get the fire going 45 minutes later...all thanks to my smart 4 year old. The heat repair guy finally arrives after 4pm. No luck on the pilot light. The entire heating and air system has to be replaced. Oh, what a day! I am really wishing that I had slept in now!
Scott and I steal a minute to talk in the kitchen while Wyatt is painting a wooden boat. We are sharing our frustrations of the day...of how the 27th days of the month just shouldn't be, of how Annabelle is supposed to be one precious little pumpkin in a few days, of how she won't be and how much the pain and the hurt of losing her hasn't lessened but is only more sharp on the 27th. Then, we hear our son...singing as he paints..."God is so good, God is so good, God is so good, He's so good to me". Tears...silence...and thanking God for the gift He's given us in our son...getting me out of me direction...and, most of all, reminding me of hope in a God that is so good on days that just seem endless.


Katie said...

Thinking of you today- Boys sure add a lot of spice to life! I'm so grateful that Wyatt helped out in bringing some light to your sadness and trials today...he's a precious little boy. Saying an extra prayer for your sweet family tonight. Take care and thanks for sharing-
Love and hugs to you,

Lindsay Dean said...

Yes,another reason for bring you smiles when things are not going just right. Wyatt was given first for this. I love you and I hope your heat gets fixed soon! ha ha Sending warm vibes your way!
Love, Suzie

The Simmons Family said...

I'm thinking of you all today on your sweet angel's 9mo birthday! How precious that you have Wyatt to lift you up and SMILE!!

So bummed to hear about your heater. If you want to come stand outside our house in AZ it's 96degrees today. You're welcome anytime!!

Hugs to you all today!!

Unknown said...

So precious Rebecca. God has blessed you and Scott with a smart, handsome, precious little boy!!! God IS so good!

Johanna Chapman

Amanda-The Family News! said...

I have been thinking of you Rebecca. Wyatt is such a blessing for your family. Annabelle is with him too...thru him she is with you all!
Happy 9 Months Angel Annabelle. Even though I never met you I love you very much!

Amanda-The Family News! said...

And Rebecca, please let me know about the car magnets... I think that is a great idea. i am ordering now!!! :)

Evie's Story said...

You know I love you and hurt...and rejoice...and cry...and laugh with you friend!

Erica May said...

I am always thinking of you and Annabelle and the family! You know you can call me anytime if you need to talk! Tell Wyatt to wait on Emerson, she would love to be his girlfriend!


The Chavis Family said...

I was thinking about you on monday and I'm thinking about you today!!

I hope you're heat is fixed...last night was really cold. Let me know about a car magnet. :) ~Kim

The Hardy Family said...

What amazing comfort and strength God is bringing you through sweet Wyatt. God is amazing in that He brings us just what we need at just the perfect time. Thank you for sharing that story with us!
I would love to have a car magnet so keep us posted on that! Very neat idea!
Love you!

aimee gillespie said...

Thinking of you and your family and praying for comfort on these difficult days.

I would also like to order a magnet for my car. Please let us know when they're available!

Aimee Gillespie

The Ridgway Family said...

Rebecca, thank you for sharing those touching thoughts with me. I do know how bitter sweet certain days of the month are and especially as we enter the holiday season. I am so sorry that the pain is still so real and heavy. Please know that I think of you and pray for you often and I know how you feel. I bought Eden's Halloween outfit last year on clearance and now it just lays in her crib. Oh how I wish our little ones were here with us, but I know that they are so healthy and happy in heaven with our Lord. Your Wyatt is such a blessing to you and I believe he carries a very special spirit to be Annabelle's brother.

Love, Keisa

~Sara~ said...

Rebecca, my sister in Christ and friend, my heart hurts so deeply for you. I rejoice in the friendship God has given us and I thank Him for the comfort and understanding you give to me.

Hugs & Prayers,


Unknown said...

Rebecca, Scott and your little man Wyatt,
Because of your strength and endurance, I am now able to see the light in many circumstances that I most likely would not have seen before. You are teaching me patience of a deeper sort. Monday of last week my employer laid me off. We were dependant on my part time salary. We were so stressed! God is so good... less than 24hrs later a different company called and offered me a Full time opportunity!!! He hears our prayers!! I'm glad Wyatt is there for you to keep you grounded when you need it most. Kids just have that ability to see past what we can't, and to bring much needed humor to the table. You are so blessed to have your little man! I love the idea of the magnets. Much interested.... keep me posted. Take care and don't forget to breathe! :)
Staci Klotz

Anonymous said...

Thanks for sharing. Your words are so true, so true! When we named Wyatt we were so pleased to find the name meant Strong Warrior...I believe the name has truth. Our firstborns have granted us more strength then they will ever know. Just another part of the beautiful plan that God holds in his hand.
Love, Beth

♥ Michele ♥ said...

What sweet and honest words that only a mother of a lost baby could say. I still think about Annabelle and how cute she was. I hope you will be strengthened during this holiday season.