Monday, May 18, 2009

A Request...

I have been remiss in writing...I apologize. I don't really have a reason or any good excuse. I think that perhaps I've neglected blogging lately to think, sit, rest, clean, nest, prepare, process & even decorate a little boy's nursery some. I'm trying to figure out how adding this new precious life to our family will change the dynamic that I was just starting to become a bit more comfortable with. My "normal" has only seemed normal for a very brief amount of time and it's changing. It's scary and increasingly exciting. I want so badly for joy to be on the other side of this adventure and for our hearts and arms to be full once again. But, I know that just as full as I pray my arms will be, I know that my heart will never be completely full. There is and will always be a very special and sacred place in my heart for Annabelle...and that's exactly the way it should be. Our third child is already changing the landscape of our hearts and starting to claim a place all his own. I am finding that there is even more room in my heart than I ever imagined. He is by both his timing and his name's biblical meaning our "bringer of light" and we are just beginning to catch a glimpse!
We will be headed to Charleston tomorrow evening for an 8am appointment on Wednesday morning to have Luke's follow-up fetal echo done with our favorite pediatric cardiologist (although all of them are wonderful, we all have one who's meant the most to us & we were blessed enough to get him this time). We are praying that his effusion has resolved and that everything looks strong & perfect & that no more advanced tests are necessary...would you please pray with and for us?
"For nothing is impossible with God." Luke 1:37

17 comments:

Jonathan said...

I am glad you wrote Rebecca! I have been worried about you and hoping that everything is o.k. I will be praying for you as you go for another echo. I know what you mean about another new normal. I know that this baby will never replace Lindsay and that it won't take the pain away. But that God would use this baby to bring us hope, strength, and grow us even more during this hard time in our lives. I know deep down inside of me I am really wanting another little girl that I will get to see grow up. I pray that Luke will bring your family lots of joy and help to fill in a small portion of the emptiness in your heart. Please update when you can!
Lots Of Love,
Laura

The Ridgway Family said...

I have been thinking of you Rebecca and I too am glad you wrote. I will be praying for Luke and your little family that all will be perfect in your fetal echo. What a blessing this little one will be to your family, but I know also that the hole will never go away or get filled in. I wonder the same things at times as I get farther along with this one. I pray that the Lord will comfort and strengthen you the next few days.

Love, Keisa

GrannyApple said...

Laura and I were together this weekend and kept checking the blog to see if you wrote. We both prayed that nothing was wrong. Thanks for letting us share and pray for you and your sweet family. I will be praying for this appointment that God will again give you peace and that Luke will come through with flying colors.
I am constantly reminded by God that Annabelle and Lindsay are having the best time in heaven. I know they are together.
With our love and prayers,
The Weltes in NJ
(Lindsay Groen's Granny and PopPop)

Amanda-The Family News! said...

Rebecca - you will FOR SURE be in my thoughts and prayers on Wednesday.
Much love - Amanda

Danielle @ Living Out Loud said...

Absolutely! I will be praying tonight and tomorrow for an "all clear" report on baby Luke.

I am so glad to see your words. Like the other commenters, I had started to worry. Plus, I just enjoy reading your words as they always prove to be meaningful and inspirational to me in some way.

While my heart celebrates your new life with you, it also weeps with you as you forever miss your Annabelle.

God Bless You, Rebecca! And good luck tomorrow! I will be thinking of you and praying for a positive report (and update :))!

Danielle @ Living Out Loud said...

Oops... I just realized that your appointment isn't until Wednesday... I read it wrong. Nevertheless, I will be praying ALL the days :)

Anonymous said...

So happy to have news from the Butchers. I am praying already that all goes well with Luke's fetal echo. Ann has transferred to PCICU and is learning so much and is happy for the chance to take care of those beautiful babes down there. She doesn't go back until Fri. so she will miss you all on Wednesday. Have a safe trip and know that you are in our thoughts and prayers always. God Bless you all! Jan

Lindsay Dean said...

Praying my sweet friend! Love you all!!!
Suzie

The Chavis Family said...

We'll be praying tomorrow morning at 8. We'll be waiting to hear how things go. ~Kim

Tommy, Erica, Addie Kate, and Andrew said...

A prayer has been said! I will be thinking of all of you today.

Miller Family said...

Praying for great news at your Dr.s Appt. Take care!

Beth Adkins said...

Lifting you and Luke up in prayer tomorrow. Remember as you are carrying your third child that you are building a family for eternity.
Love, Beth

RHONDA said...

We will most certainly pray for all of you and this precious little life God has entrusted to your care. God knows everything you are feeling on the inside, and he is with you. Waiting on a good report!!
Love
Rhonda Lyle

Lindsay Dean said...

I will be thinking of you today....yes it is 12:39 in the morning, so yes, today! ha ha Praying that things have resolved over time and you can be at peace knowing that little Luke is perfect in every way! Love you!
Suzie

Shannon Carter said...

We'll be praying for you and your precious little miracle!!!
Shannon

Ashlee said...

I absolutely know how you feel, Rebecca. I will be praying for precious Luke, and for you all to be able to breathe one big sigh of relief today.

Love you,
Ashlee

Amanda-The Family News! said...

Thinking of you today Rebecca....